I'm a lot of things...and frustrated is one

I'm ****in frustrated right now, seriously.


I'm SO tired of my plans getting screwed. I hardly ever get to see my family OR my OOT friends. Whenever I plan to see them....what happens? SOMETHING gets totally screwed up.

I wish that I didn't work and could go and do as I please...but then I'd be broke and that would just end up being worse. Still though, I just wish that I had done a lot of things differently. Instead of seemingly picking the most difficult path to go down.

I wish I had stayed my ass in school for starters. Had I done that, I'd either be A.) Graduated by now or B.) Graduating in a few months.

Right now I'm just in a bad mood and I'm thinking about all that's gone wrong (or not according to my plans) and all that I've done wrong. Just simple decisions that I regret. Going left instead of right, saying no when I should have said yes....giving up instead of sticking with it....

I'm just feeling so down right now. So mad....so just generally pissed off. I just want to feel like I've made the right choice and its not going to come back to bite me.

I guess for now I just have to stay positive and work on getting to where I need to be. I've got a good job that doesn't pay too shabby. I've got a lot to look forward to and I just hope I make better decisions this time around.