I'm a lot of things...

Hi there readers.

I usually don't blog but I think it might be healthy that I start lol. Right now I'm going through something very personal that has really shaken me up. I can't really begin to explain, and I don't really want to either. I get tired of thinking people are my "friends" when truly, they aren't. If you have something to say...stop being a d**k and find a NICE way to say something to my face. If you don't care that what you have to say may hurt my feelings then I don't really need to care what you have to say anyway right?

So I'm saying a big FU and just dealing with it and moving on. People are always going to be exactly how they are unless they put forth a concerted effort to change. I don't see this happening for some people.

I'm not going to let anyone tell me I'm not a good person, because there are too many people who say otherwise. People that I've known forever and people that I'm just getting to know.

I just have to learn to bottle it up and realize that not everyone that is nice is your friend.

Anyhow...aside from a depressing way to start my first post...I'm a pretty upbeat person.

Some facts about Me:

Status-
Engaged to my boyfriend of (almost) 3 years. Everyone calls him Jr, Joe, or J...real name is Joseph.

Children-
Jr has a little girl named Asya. Shes going to be 3 in March and shes amazing. Whenever she stays with us the house is a little brighter and we smile a little more. Watching her little personality develop has been the most wonderful thing. I will post some pictures so you can see her cuteness.

Siblings-
Not by birth. By birth I'm an only child. However, I've got a Krise. Shes my big sister as far as anyone is concerned. It's a long story how she got into my family but long story short I've known her since I was 4 years old. Shes the most amazing person and I don't know what I'd do without her. She and her 3 daughters (my nieces) moved in with my mom and I while I was in High School. Best birth control EVER. lol. Living with her little ones I learned all that I know about kids and I'd do anything for those little ones.

I've also got a best friend that I call a stister. Shes like a sister, but not lol. So shes a stister. Candace and I met in college through mutual friend and bonded fast. She actually grew up in a town thats only about an hour from where I did. Long story short we both ended up at Columbia College and had the most amazingly awful fantastic depressing wonderful time of our lives lol. We have had our ups and downs but we always remain friends. Just over a year ago she had a son (who I helped name). Tristan Mathew Lee. He is spoiled like no other...but hes Candaces little world and I love him to death. I even got named God Mother. Hey hey hey. About 6 months ago I had to help Candace out of one of the most difficult things she had ever faced. Adultery (her ex husband not her) and a divorce. Shes coming back from it and doing well. I still try to convince her to move to Columbia...but its a wait and see.

Parents-
My Parents were high school sweethearts. No really...they were. They started dating when they were 14/16. In 1974 they made it official and got married. 13 years later...they had me. May 11th 1996 was the last day I saw my Dad. I was 9 when he passed, but it still affects me to this day. My mom vowed to never re-marry. As she puts it "I've been there...and done that. He was my soul mate and you're supposed to marry your soul mate.". She has found someone to live out her life with. Life partners if you will. Andy is a great guy and I'm really happy that they have each other. (its taken me awhile to say that...pat on the back).

Friends-
I can't write about me, without writing about my friends. I've got home friends, new friends, work friends, old friends. All of which mean the world to me. Amidst all of the recent drama...I still have to trust that I know who is genuine and who isn't.

Erica is a best friend of mine. She is level headed and always has the best advice. We met when we were both on trips to Italy and Greece and stayed friends ever since. We come from different places and different situations but we are very much alike. I can't being to express how important she is....loves ya Erica!

There are so many more that I'd love to devote a paragraph to, but my fingers would cramp up before I get it all out lol. You all know who you are....and I love each of you!

Well, I'm not sure how much more you could even want to know about me...but if you keep reading then I'm sure more will be found out. I'll probably be posting more as my day goes on lol.

A plus!